Jika Memilikimu Berarti Akhir Buat Kita

Jika Memilikimu Akhir Buat Kita

jika memilikimu berarti akhir buat kita;

maka biarkan rindu menggantikan 

semua keinginan yang pernah ada

jika memelukmu cuma meninggalkan luka;

maka biarkan kututup mata dan 

menghadirkanmu dalam khayal semata

jika kau aku bahagia bersentuhan dalam rasa;

maka biarkan rasa menjadi raja

dan membebaskan kita dari keinginan sia-sia

(19 Nov 2005)

*Dari Buku Puisi: "Meet Me in The Horizon", Eref Leo

A Short Note to No Body

To whom I used to call... blue sky

Eventually, I have to end up in the land of emptyness, fall into a loneliness where the only thing I have is an oasis in which I can lay down myself and feel the peacefull mind.

Nothing to feel sorry about, though I walked away from your room and miss all your beautiful sparkling and glistering eyes. If so, it is gonna be that I feel sorry for hurted you, if you feel so. 

I did it bcos I can't make my word as simple as the way it should be so you don't feel hurt. I just didn't know how to say it in different way.. that our journey has come to the end. The end of our togetherness.

togethernesss???

As a matter of fact, our 'togetherness' is one thing that bothering me as it is actually never happened in reality. It does exist only in our tricky mind. We both know that we could never be together. Ever. 

So, here I am, dancing in the loneliness with your shadow. You know it for sure, that everytime I loose you, then everything is gone. Everything is dissappear, leaving me down here.. Only me and my trembling soul. Yet, I'm gonna face it all. B'cos it is worth with my desire, to get to know the meaning of faithfullness.

So be it. I'm gonna walk away from our horizon and stare on your blue sky day and night. For our goodsake, for the rest of our life.

Penjaga Bintang

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Yang (tak) terlupakan...

Aku masih tetap sama, menatapi langit dan memetakan rindu pada bintang dan rembulan yang rapi beredar pada lintasannya, dari hari ke hari, waktu ke waktu. Seperti semesta engkau yang tak pernah hilang, tak pernah jemu aku mengingatmu.

Tapi kerlap kerlipnya makin malas bicara dan tak lagi menebarkan cerita-cerita tentang bagaimana kelak kulumat sadarku dan menaburkan kau dalam mimpi yang sempurna, agar kita kembali bersonata.

Entahlah, aku mungkin tak akan pernah berhenti menyulamkan kenangan dan bayang tentangmu di bidang jauh tak terjangkau angan. Meski kita tak lagi bicara, meski kita tak lagi menyapa.

Aku tak pernah jemu menjaganya!


(Nov 2005)